Today…. my cousin got married… Ojay and Liza… congratulations!!~
today’s theme colour is……….
my favorite color among all colours in the world!!~ yeah!!~
but sadly… since i dont know the theme colour, so i just go on with blue… never mind~ my shoes are in purple (that’s the only shoe i brought yesterday) ^^
who cares??? we can match any colour in the world as we like… it’s not like the colours r controlling us, we CONTROL them… rite? 
so… as usual… pictures!!~
GEMS… Graduate Employability Management Scheme.. yup… the offer email just come in yesterday, in less 12hrs after i wrote the previous entry…
yup! the one which i kinda curse my phone for ringing during my interview!!~ i cant believe it!!~ i got accepted!!!~ 1st batch intake
well.. i got many things going on around me these days… my driving test coming soon, dpli & kpli result will come out somewhere next week plus my endless wait for SPA to call me for more interviews (i really praying and hoping that i can work with goverment)
i dont know…seriously… i ask several elders, asking their opinion, some says go for it, some want me to wait
go for it as the programme was developed so that freash graduates will improve self esteem as well as communication skill… becoming asset, not liability
my QTI (pre JPJ) test probably next week… so i might gonna travel back and forth AS-SP a lot… i am not worried about that… what i am worried about is; what if my instructor doesnt allow me to skip lectures and go for interview or worst my driving test??? driving license… a very long long long dream for me… i always dreamt that i drive (my dreams usually turn out the opposite)
i dreamt that i didnt get university acceptence, but in reality i already graduated… i usually dreamt things that imposibble… being in 2 places at once… you know, dejavu related dream.. huuuuuu~~~~ maybe due to overthinking about the past & future… what past already done to me and what future that awaits me… some of you might laugh when you read this, some of you might worry… but that’s what life is all about… true meaning of LIFE and LIVE
my promise to ev… the thing that she loves the most!!~ never satisfied with just ONE… she wants more than TEN!!~ 
Endless wait… yeah.. that’s right… its me… keep on waiting and waiting
Had attended several exams and interviews… but each one just keep silence… GEMS project supposed to begin on 11th, today already 7th, so i supposed i didnt get that >_<
Well… i already predicted this thou, bringing temp IC to interview, plus with crappy resume and result *sigh* extra addition with my big mouth… telling everybody ‘nonsense’ plus my phone that seldom rings at all RINGS during my interview!!~~ haishhhhh!!!~ NEVER BRING UR HANDPHONE IF YOU ARE ATTENDING AN INTERVIEW!!!!~
JOBLESS = BORED + CRAPPY + OVERWEIGHT + PENNILESS
just wanna share this pic…
Struggling… yes…. only one word… that’s all i wanna say…
I am currently struggling… between my work, interviews, and my hobby… i think most of you can figure out my current hobby… yeah!!~ being computer literate has both good and bad aspect… good as you can do your work faster, less sweat, beautifully, and the most important thing… feel good about your computer savvy work ^^
What i wanna say here is the bad… bad as you cought up while doing your work… me for instance… as my concentration level kinda low, so i always get distracted by my own desire… for example… i open MS WORD to type my teaching plan for today (as now already 1/2 ne?)
i open my firefox as well… yeah~ downloading… that’s my JOB everyday.. regardless my lappy available HD space.. yet i keep downloading and downloading… if my lappy can speak to me, it’ll say… “my owner… that’s enough… i am full already… i feel like wanna vomit now!!!”
haishhhh…. next… okie.. i know… i tend to do 2-3 jobs at one time… surfing, reading teacher’s guide, printing, Hj splitting.. whatever i feel wanna do that time… plus distracting ‘other’ people on YM + watching TV all at the same time… time seems not enough for me huh??? T.T
then.. before i continues writing my teaching plan for today seems forgotten… haishhh… agian… then i go on exploring my lappy, and my eyes saw my favourite Big Bang MV… sunset glow… i end up watching that MV over and over again… then i got thirsty, went downstairs, making coffee and then went up and facing my lappy again…. then i uncounsiously ‘CONTINUE’ my fangirling work, and open DBSK, Wonder Girl and my other favourite Korean artist….
aigooo~~~ by the end of the day…. i end up sleeping VERY LATE as usual ne? something around 3.30am, and gotta wake up as early as 5.30am (cuz my school takes about 45minutes from my home… around 35km.. so i travel about 70km per day… just to go to school!!!!!
i kinda like being a teacher… maybe teaching is in my blood… my mother, my auncles and aunties, most of them are ‘TEACHER’ … i didnt look like a teacher am i?
computer literate doesnt mean that you are ‘special’ or ‘better’ than others… but if you can use your knowledge in correct way, then you are ‘SPECIAL’ and ‘LUCKY’
ok… done babbling this mornin… tomorrow school starts after a very LONGGGGGGG holiday…. i wish ALL my students are healthy and doing their homework that i gave 2 weeks ago…
Gong Xi Fa Chai to all~ well… nothing to do during holiday rite?? let’s try playing with masks…
but your first step gotta make silhouette for your object… in order to get rid of annoyed background ^^
you can learn those at http://gimpguru.org/Tutorials/SimulatedDOF/
after you made the silhouette, then you can manipulates it’s background using mask.. to learn more go to http://gimpguru.org/Tutorials/ReplaceBackground/
my original picture is like this
as you can see here… so many distractions in the picture!!~ people walking by, t-shirts hanging and so on…
then i make silhouette for this pic… just leaving my pic there ^^
see??? just black background around my picture
then i change that colour to pink.. .err… seems like peach huh?? whatever~
seems boring huh??? then i tried several pattern fill… well… many… puahahaha
then when i already bored with fills, i tried using brushes… so many brushes to choose from ^^
then i tried using combination… gradient and brushes
well… enough GIMP’ing for today… later i’ll try some more.. and improve my technique!!~ especially when i’m making pic silhouette…
for those who want to try this… my advice… be patient and careful 
zam zam ala kazammm~~ *disappeared*
My cousin… got engaged today… well just for those who curious
I dont know why he give dowry so early… hahaha… maybe cuz he dont wanna his bride to feel burden.. or he just wanna show that he’s generous man to his upcoming father and mother in laws?? hahaha…
hahahah.. engagement ring… and the lucky upcoming bride was forced to eat sugar.. several tablespoon actually… yup333 today ^^
another Malay tradition to feed their upcoming daughter in law with sugar
well.. no pic of future husband and wife with me… hahahaha.. sorry
Hahahahaha… while i am in school lib, i snap this pic… my students… all girls!!~ of course…. the boys seems NEVER approach LIBRARY during rest time rite?
Typical 9yrs old student posing in front of camera
and this will become if their teacher has some korean entertainment influence in her =P
Typical 9yrs old with JS’s cute pose
yeah!!~ i thought them how to pose with Junsu’s cute pose!!~ ROFL!!!~
layan~~~~
Well… almost everybody know the fact already.. i am substitute teacher in one primary school, teaching students standard 3-6 (9-12yrs)
and some know another fact already.. i am not a shopaholic person… i dont like buying clothes, shoes etc.. i mean grooming.. but today, i have to buy another pair of shoes… i am a teacher for a week now, so.. gotta find another pair of shoes before i end up using that one for the rest of my teaching days!!~
Here you are!!!~ a brand new shoes
~shiny shoe shines~
dark brown… cuz the brown one looks better than the black one ^^
so this gonna be my 1st high heel shoes.. i mean high heel ladies shoes!!~ yup… my very first
hope that this shoes bring luck to me.. i have to think a way to control those OVER NAUGHTY children…
yeah!!~ echah hwaiting!!~ arieszai hwaiting!!~ stroberi hwaiting!!~ halmoni’s and harabuji’s gdottie hwaiting!!~ zai’s honey hwaiting!!~ lala’s aunty hwaiting!!~ teah’s cousin hwaiting!!~ mc boss hwaiting!!!~
cikgu aisyah hwaiting!!!~ <_<
New adventure for me… I never realized that teaching children can be this hard!!~
Yeah… cuz they’re too young to realize why they have to go to school… so me as an adult have to bear with their naughtiness…
Well… I become a substitute teacher in one primary school starting on Monday 12th January… aja2!!~
and for my own encouragement, i brought DBSK 2009 table calender and put it like this on my table… i mean my table at teachers room ^^
DBSK 2009 calender
do you notice any weird thing there??? hahaha.. go and find em urself
Lately i’ve been thinking too much I think… What actually things that keeps us to go on with our life???
Today I got the answers I need.. they are FRIENDS and FAMILY
Firstly.. FAMILY… kazoku in jpse.. keluarga in Malay language
Family always.. i mean ALWAYS important to us.. family first rite? Every decision we’ve made.. we takes family our first priority. They always there for us.. comforting, encouraging us… that the factor that seems like “fuel” for us to move on.. our basic nucleus… what we came from… who we are.. even though even if we want to deny them, but DNA doesnt lie… DNA so complex as we humans dont know how DNA affecting our life… we were born with it, & our physical adapt the DNA we have… even though we drain all the BLOOD in our body, and change it with another (i mean somebody else’s blood) the SAME OLD blood will be reproduced!!~ (explaination :: my very own theory.. not based on experimental procedure)
that’s all… FAMILY
Friends or tomodachi in Japanese or kawan, teman, sahabat in Malay language…
Unlike FAMILY… FRIENDS actually person that dont have blood relation to us (there’s ppl that tend to think FAMILY as their FRIENDS.. but they’re FAMILY rite?)
Like in my case… I have three types of FRIENDS…
One.. person that I know in random.. meaning that people that become my friend throughout internet, or workplace, or school… I am not so close to them.. they dont know our secret, and seems ONLY searching for us when they NEED us.. always like that… i hate this!!~ only friend when we are needed
secondly, real FRIEND…
This one sometimes reach as the same level as FAMILY members… we consider them as our FAMILY…we tend to share with them our secrets, and we can tell them our very honest feeling… we tend to share both laughter and tears with them… and they know the secrets that we kept in our secret box in our heart. We feel warm every time they’re around us
In my case… I have lots and lots of friends….i mean common one… but if i count my real friends, i can count them with my hands… what i wanna tell here actually the fact that I am not friendly as I seem to be… there’s mask that i wear on everyday, every time i met new people…So, my real friends r the one supporting me.. giving me encouragement, make me feel ease after having bad nightmare, always comforting me… I dont expect them to lie to me just to comfort me, what I ask for will be TRUE HONEST.. even though honesty sometimes hurts, but we have to face the truth… reality…
when there’s no honesty, so i cant move on anymore.. STOP!!~ i cant become REAL FRIENDS anymore… so they will become third type…friends that leaves us small thorn in our heart… the people that whenever we think, our heart feel empty… zero…for me, this kind of friend just like any other human on earth… people that seems invisible… i mean… people that we don’t even know who they are…
ok.. stop babbling echah… i wrote too much already..
let us think about this…
what actually keeping us go on?????
