Lately i’ve been thinking too much I think… What actually things that keeps us to go on with our life???
Today I got the answers I need.. they are FRIENDS and FAMILY
Firstly.. FAMILY… kazoku in jpse.. keluarga in Malay language
Family always.. i mean ALWAYS important to us.. family first rite? Every decision we’ve made.. we takes family our first priority. They always there for us.. comforting, encouraging us… that the factor that seems like “fuel” for us to move on.. our basic nucleus… what we came from… who we are.. even though even if we want to deny them, but DNA doesnt lie… DNA so complex as we humans dont know how DNA affecting our life… we were born with it, & our physical adapt the DNA we have… even though we drain all the BLOOD in our body, and change it with another (i mean somebody else’s blood) the SAME OLD blood will be reproduced!!~ (explaination :: my very own theory.. not based on experimental procedure)
that’s all… FAMILY
Friends or tomodachi in Japanese or kawan, teman, sahabat in Malay language…
Unlike FAMILY… FRIENDS actually person that dont have blood relation to us (there’s ppl that tend to think FAMILY as their FRIENDS.. but they’re FAMILY rite?)
Like in my case… I have three types of FRIENDS…
One.. person that I know in random.. meaning that people that become my friend throughout internet, or workplace, or school… I am not so close to them.. they dont know our secret, and seems ONLY searching for us when they NEED us.. always like that… i hate this!!~ only friend when we are needed
secondly, real FRIEND…
This one sometimes reach as the same level as FAMILY members… we consider them as our FAMILY…we tend to share with them our secrets, and we can tell them our very honest feeling… we tend to share both laughter and tears with them… and they know the secrets that we kept in our secret box in our heart. We feel warm every time they’re around us
In my case… I have lots and lots of friends….i mean common one… but if i count my real friends, i can count them with my hands… what i wanna tell here actually the fact that I am not friendly as I seem to be… there’s mask that i wear on everyday, every time i met new people…So, my real friends r the one supporting me.. giving me encouragement, make me feel ease after having bad nightmare, always comforting me… I dont expect them to lie to me just to comfort me, what I ask for will be TRUE HONEST.. even though honesty sometimes hurts, but we have to face the truth… reality…
when there’s no honesty, so i cant move on anymore.. STOP!!~ i cant become REAL FRIENDS anymore… so they will become third type…friends that leaves us small thorn in our heart… the people that whenever we think, our heart feel empty… zero…for me, this kind of friend just like any other human on earth… people that seems invisible… i mean… people that we don’t even know who they are…
ok.. stop babbling echah… i wrote too much already..
let us think about this…
what actually keeping us go on?????
